Sunday Stew

Can't believe I haven't posted anything in over a week.

Time just seems to fly by now, week to week, period to period. Work, work, work.

Why is everyone dying all of a sudden? MJ, Farrah, Billy Mayes, and now Steve McNair. Craziness.

I don't get sentimental or anything when some celebrity dies. I think the media hoopla, is pretty goofy actually. I guess some people struggle with it, because celebrities become so important to them. Like in the case of MJ a lot of people grew up loving him and his music. People can remember where they were when they heard this song or who was around them when they heard that song. So, something like that's a bit more personal. My reaction is usually just a "wow, that sucks." But, I'm not gonna say someone is wrong for going overboard with it. Everyone grieves differently. I've always kind of wondered what eulogy I would give if my parents died. I'm sure I would be the one doing it. I would be expected to do it. I've always kind of been the leader of the family and the one everyone turns to for that sort of thing. If that makes sense. When I was a christian I would always be asked to pray.. like I was the only one that was worthy of doing it or something. It's actually kind of awkward now, because at thanksgiving I'm still asked to pray... I have to awkwardly decline. My mom doesn't know me well enough anymore to know I'm not a christian.

The 4th was dead for me too. I worked an open to close after my opening driver called in on Friday night. Every single girl who works at my store had the day off, so a total of 4 of us worked on it. We weren't very busy, so it wasn't bad. The day dragged on for the end part of the night and I was struggling to focus. I didn't see a single fire work or get a single taste of BBQ. weak sauce.

Still haven't heard anything about my brother's hit and run incident. He's very worried.

I must go to the gym tomorrow. Every week that goes by just seems like another week lost. A few weeks ago I posted that I was finally getting used to my schedule and then of course it changes and I'm working a ton again. This past week I actually had my two days off, but couldn't get my ass up to do anything. I'm off monday and saturday this week. I took off saturday so that I could go to UFC 100 at hooters with my brother. That'll be a nice break. assuming I get to do it.

I'm getting a little annoyed with my "bonus" at work. Period 4, which was 3 periods ago still hasn't been fixed. I'm owed like 60-80 bucks there. Then I get my period 5 information this past week and it was wrong. I should make like 85 from that, instead I got 0. I don't understand how they can keep f-ing up the paperwork and then they just lolligag to get it done. If it was their bonuses I guarantee you it would be top priority. It's really pissing me off actually. Granted it's not like it's life changing money. But when you're struggling most weeks, it helps. Plus, it's just the integrity of the whole thing. As GMs we work are asses off and then when it comes time to get a little extra money, they've f-ed it up and are basically like, oh, oops.. it'll get fixed when it gets fixed. I'm pretty set on saying something at our meeting monday. It's not like mine is the only one messed up either.. it's a few people in just my bosses area, I don't even know if other district manager areas are having the same problem. I don't even know if my boss does the paperwork. It doesn't matter... we are expected to do our shit right, why aren't they? Luckily it's all extra money, so it hasn't cost me. But eventually, I plan on getting my bonus, and more of it, regularly.

I have to remind myself that the job isn't just about the money with me. I'm here mainly for the experience and for the promotion opportunities. By no means, is the salary worth the amount of work I do. But, that's okay. I have no problems with working hard and being the best I can. I believe it's an investment right now and it'll pay off in the future. It's like grinding basically. You keep playing that .25 no limit and improve your game so that when you get up to the big tables you know what you're doing and what to expect. I burned out on poker because I couldn't move up. I know I'll be able to move up here. Not to mention there's never a risk of losing a bunch of money. I work I get paid... well, for the most part.