Weird

It's probably not weird, it's probably natural. But I swear the more I go to the gym the worst I eat. Yesterday, I ate so many calories. More than I've had in a while, I think. Okay, that's not true, I guess. A few weeks ago when I was with my brothers I ate a lot. Anyways, I've been to the gym every day this week. I haven't weighed myself yet. But, my appetite is huge this week. My body is against me. It's not so bad when we have good food in the house, cuz then I'm only eating 100-200 calories at a time. But when all we have is junk that my brother bought it becomes a lot more. I gotta be smarter about grocery shopping. Not so much with selection cuz, we've been great at that lately. But, just making sure I have all bases covered for when I have a craving. I found a really good deal on some chocolate granola Fiber One bars at Target the other day. They're basically 2 for a 1$ and they are only 140 calories a piece. They were quite good and they would fill a craving.

Eating too bad right now doesn't hurt me too much, cuz it's still better than my body wants me to eat. But, soon it will hurt me I think, in my weight loss. Having good metabolism alone is good enough right now for me losing weight. I'm anxious to see what my weight loss is this week. I've worked hard. I can't be discouraged though if it's not as much as I want it to be. I'm okay with whatever it is. I feel good lately and going to the gym is really becoming just a regular thing. John and leo were right about it becoming a habit for me and me wanting to go every day. Sometimes I look at other people and just wonder if I'll ever look like them and how great it would be. I used to think i would always be huge but, now I can see that I determine what size I will be. It sounds silly, but watching the biggest loser is a lot of inspiration as well. I've seen seasons where guys have lost almost 200 pounds. It'll take longer for me, but it is possible. What a great day it will be when I'm trying to figure out what to do with all my extra skin, instead of all my extra fat. I look forward to it.