It's 3 am and I cant sleep

I have to be up in just a few hours but I can't sleep. WHen I lay down I start thinking about a bunch of shit, sometimes and this is one of those nights. So, maybe if I write in my blog all of my ideas, I'll be at peace.

So, random thoughts with Jack Han... er I mean Jason Flamm.

First, I was thinking earlier about starting at 10NL, Full ring. But, I remember how much I detest 10NL. So, the next option is to start where I always start when rebuilding a roll and thats the 6.50$ turbo sngs. The only issue is, I absolutely have no idea what poker is like right now, especially in sngs. WHen I quit playing they were already tighter than hell, even at the 6$ level. So, I don't know if that's the smart way to go. I only have about 100$ to put into poker right away, so at the 6.50 level that would give me (shamefully pulls out calculator for the simple math (it's 3 am, remember, give me a break)) 15 buy ins. At 10NL, I would have 10 buy ins. Now, I've been away from the game for a few months but there's no reason to think I can't beat either one of these. WIth the 10NL though it would be pretty damn boring, but I'm quite sure that in the first week I could double my money. NOw, here's the good news... I've figured out a way to start a new account (since mine is currently being used) and get the first deposit bonus, from FTP and rakeback. I don't know what numbers are exactly needed to clear the bonus at that level, but I would assume that I should clear at least 50$ a week, maybe not, idk. But, for the sake of something we'll say that much. Now, with the rakeback, I'd probably make about $1 per hour at that level. I plan on playing 20 hours a week. So, it's pretty safe to say I think that by week 2 I should have doubled up my initial deposit. Unless of course I suck ass or the cards hit me in the balls. It happens.

I think my ultimate goal at least at first will be to get to 15 buy ins for 25 NL, 6 max. Since 6 max is/was my strongest game. (pulls out calculator) That's $375 needed for that. Once I get there I will get to 20 buy ins, keep that amount in there at all times and pull out my profit each week. I think with rakeback and that initial bonus I should be there in a month. There's really no reason to go over any more numbers than that, we'll cross that bridge when we get there. I think I'll play a few sngs at first and see how the games are, if they're terrible, I'll just nut peddle at 10NL.

2nd

I had a great idea.. or at least at 3 am it seems like a great idea. It's probably already taken, but I've never heard of it if it is. Treadmills are very boring to me. So I thought that wouldn't it be cool, if like at a gym they had a set up where there were 5 or so treadmills set up side by side and there was like a screen for each one and the computer would simulate as though they were all in a race. You could have different races set up, marathons, sprints, whatever. And in case there is an uneven level of fitness you can set up handicaps. For instance, if say 4 of hte people are in better shape and the 5th would struggle every time you can say okay, for the 4, at level 3 speed it gains the same amount of distance as level 2 speed does for the less fit one. That way people wouldn't be intimidated by the fact that everyone else is zooming right past them. On the screen for each runner it would show what the race would look like from Point of view. So, if they're in 3rd place they would see the 2 people ahead of them. The screen could count down, 3, 2, 1, Gunshot for the race to start and all that good stuff. It would basically be like a video game/treadmill for excercise. And you could do it with biking and other stuff I'm sure. Seems like it would make things alittle more fun and keep people coming back. Idk, like i said seems like a good idea and maybe it's already been done.

3rd

I keep making excuses for not working out and the latest one is that I can't afford/ probably wouldn't go to by myself, a gym membership. Fuck that. I can do plenty of stuff around the house. I have to not only make but stick to a fitness plan. I'm sure everyone here is tired of hearing it and trust me after years of doing this to myself so am i. After all, i "make plans and never stick to them", trust me I know. But, I have to keep trying. Eventually I'll find the right one and it'll stick. I need to go simple. I need to go cheap. And I need to see results.

What else?

I'm tired.

Maybe I'm done.

I'll try to sleep now.

gl me.

YAY, Sunday OFF!!

I get sunday off tomorrow, I think it's the first sunday off since I began working at dominos. I could be wrong. Anyhow it's certainly the first sunday off since football has begun. I am very excited at the idea that i get to sit around and watch football all damn day. it makes me happy.

I'm also off next sunday, WOWZAS!


On another note, I have been doing some thinking about how to earn some extra money. I think I've decided to take some of the extra money I have and start playing poker again online. I've been away a few months, but it couldn't have changed that much, right? Anyways, I hate the idea of losing the extra money I have if things don't work out or I go on a bad streak right away. But, it's a much better alternative to potentially ruining my dads car by delivering papers. And if poker does happen to kick my ass right away, I could always fall back on newspaper delivery. Both options have risks, but I'm gonna go with poker first, I think.

Once I think more about it and figure out how much I can start my bankroll with I'll come up with a plan. WOW, this site might actually talk about poker again... what'd ya know?

Gayness

As the blog is aware, a month, month and a half, whatever it's been ago, my brother got in an accident in my dads car. Well, we've gone through all the stuff we needed to go through. We filed a claim against the other guy's insurance, they did their investigation, sent an appraiser/adjuster out to estimate the loss of my dads car. Well, last tuesday we were mailed a letter according to them. We never got it. I've been calling and calling this guy to try and find out what the next step was. All the time expecting a check or some kind of money for my dad's car to get fixed. We weren't actually gonna fix it, cuz the car is too old and it wasn't worth it, but we were expecting some money. My dad had told me that we would use whatever we got to fix my car. Which, I don't know if that would've happened, I would rather he take it and get his car up to par, because I think his car, even though it's older has more life left in it then mine. Anyways, so yesterday my dad calls the insurance and gets the guy to send the letter to me via email, at least so we can continue in whatever we are supposed to be doing. Well, here is a screen shot of that letter,



If you dont feel like reading it, it basically says that after their investigation they have decided that my brother was at fault in the accident and so we are getting nothing. My brother claims that it was the other guys fault and regardless of whether he's lying or not, this is pretty damn annoying. So, I called my insurance and they said that they would open their own investigation, as to cover their own ass and try to prevent this guy from collecting.

It's really annoying and I'm not very happy at the idea of this being on my insurance and my policy potentially going up because of it. More bad news out of the flamm camp. GARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

One of the Best Feelings ever....

Besides the obvious ones; sex, ice cream, and reruns of the Rams Superbowl (how long ago it seems).

Expecting to make one amount of money and then seeing your check and it's 100$ more than that. That's one of the best feelings ever. I got my raise, well my 2nd raise. 1 more makes me the Senior Assistant Manager and then it's "Run my own store or bust" mode. Also, I planned on more taxes being taken out, just to be cautious. That's why it was so much more.

Good thing too, cuz my dads water pump went out on his car and I have to pay 125$ to get it fixed. It never stops, right.

Anyways, the money is really going to help and even though I knew I was getting the raise I hadn't heard whether it was approved or not. If I can make it thru the next month, everything will be okay, I think. Well, till shit breaks down some more. I've been contemplating working a 2nd job delivering papers. That would help alot ot have that income. But, having worked 2 jobs a lot in the past, I really would prefer not to. But, the lure of the money is so tempting. Plus, I'm scared my dads car wont make it through the stress. It would be the worst thing ever if I made money and then turned around and had to put it all back into the car. I dont know. Maybe something good will happen soon.

John McCain gave me a sore arm!

Yesterday, at Domino's we were responsible for providing the John McCain rally with 200 pizzas. They were having it a few miles away and we were told about our part in it a few days before that. So, yesterday I stretched about 75 pizza doughs. Then I sauced and topped about 75 others. My arm is killing me today. LOL. I didn't know you could get an injury from making pizza.

Also, since about Friday, I have been having a lot of pain from my ankle. Work on Saturday was the absolute most pain I've been in since Walmart. The insoles I got from the podiatrist a little while back haven't really helped at all. In fact, right after getting them I went out and bought some new shoes. Well, less than a week after wearing the new shoes the side of one of them split. The rubber part. It happened because the insoles were making my feet roll over to the outside basically. Which, I don't get, because they were supposed to do the opposite. Anyways, I stopped wearing them for about a week, but still had some discomfort so I put them back on. Well, I don't know if the insoles caused whatever problem I'm having with my ankle now, but that's when my ankle began to kill me. It feels like it's ripping away from my skin. Like if you were to slice the back of your ankle and walk on it, is how I felt on saturday. I tried taking Tylenol all day, but it didn't do anything. Well, Sunday, knowing I'd be working my ass off, my wife gave me some of her Oxycodone. That kept me pretty drugged all day and I hardly felt any pain from my feet or ankle. Today it's a little sore still, but I'm gonna see how it does tonite at work before I see a doctor about it. Regardless I need to go back to the podiatrist and see what's up with these insoles not working. It's pretty damn frustrating though. I wore the insoles for at least a few weeks, even with the pain still cuz I thought maybe i just needed to get used to them. My wife says it might be the shoes I bought, but according to the doctor I could use them in any shoe they fit in. So, I don't know.

I do know my arm hurts today though, and my wrist. Now I'm definitely voting Obama!

Still on Top in Fantasy, but tough week this week

I'm still on top in my fantasy football league, the UFFL-StL, but this week I play the other top team in both the keeper and the Head to head leagues. Here is a look at the standings.



This week I'm playing my brother who is 1st and I'm 2nd in the Head to head league. According to Yahoo's projections I should stomp him.. let's hope they're right.

In the Keeper league I'm playing Quizhoes, who boasts a RB combo of AP and LT, lucky for me LT might still be hurt. Yahoo says I should lose by 1, which means it should be a helluva matchup. This should be an exciting week of Fantasy!

This is Fun, let's keep going

For those that need to be caught up. Simply go to the Comments section on the previous post and catch up. Here is the Latest from Anonymous

"
i'm not ignorant. i know it makes you feel better about yourself thinking that i am. i'm a detached observer. i am just commenting on the facts that are in your blog.

1. you can't support yourself. in the last year or so, you have sponged off your inlaws, brothers, and father. they all let you mooch a place to stay. you shoulda just done what your father inlaw wanted and continued living there. i don't remember the exact details, but i do remember thinking that you were a fool to blow that living arrangement.

2. you can't even afford to keep a car on the road. you either get fined ,towed, take it to half ass mechanics because you can't afford a decent one. you will never get this current car on the road and keeep it there without some sort of hand out.

3. you kid yourself with all these goals you keep making. have you even accomplished one in the last year that had any sort of meaning to it? you make excuses and change to new goals when you don't achieve your original ones.

4. as far as poker goes, you wouldn't be dead ass broke if you made any reeal money at it. being a "winning player" doesn't mean showing a microscopic profit over years when you play the game for a living.

5. id be willing to bet a big number that you A. you never make it to store manager and b. that you're not even a dominoes employee in a year.

6. people in your financial/ domestic state should be poster boys for birth control. how could you even afford a car seat? oh that's right you wouldn't need one.

i read your blog to help me avoid the pitfalls of being a pro poker player. you've taught me a few things "not to do". i never had any ill will about you and still don't. i only voiced my opinions when you started talking about having children. you seem like a nice guy and i don't want bad things to happen you, but you should not subject an innocent child to the horrid life that you would provide for it. i'm not saying that you'd be a deadbeat dad, but your dead ass broke and due to your weight, you'll probably be dead for real before youe 50."

Let's address each issue he brings up.

Opening statement:
I never said you yourself were ignorant. I said according to your comments you are making ignorant comments, because it didn't seem as though you were actually following along. You said things like "You're wife isn't living with you" and "you have no car." Both of those were false. I didn't call you ignorant for some self fulfilling sub-conscious need I have to put others down. I don't do that and in fact hate people that do that.

1. Perhaps you don't know what it's like to be in need and be able to call upon the support of loved ones. I don't know. But, yes, I have "sponged" off of my family to help me out. Last year was the worst financial year of my entire adult life. I was working a job delivering newspapers, and making enough money to pay the bills. The problem though was that towards the end of the year my car began to fall apart. In November and December I had spent almost half the money I made from the job on car repairs. So, I decided I was quitting. That year I was playing poker part time, as a 2nd job. I made almost 10,000$ from poker that year. That was without making a single deposit. That was all profit. So, I decided that when the new year began I would take a shot at poker full time. The benefits were aplenty and the negative wasn't that bad. I figured at the time that if I did fail at poker, that I could simply get another dead end job. Also, in that time my wife and I were awaiting a ruling on her disability. Every doctor we talked to told us there was no doubt she would be getting some type of disability. With that income and my poker income, I had no doubt we could afford things on our own. Needless to say, we got denied disability. Everyone we talked to after that said, "oh they deny everyone the first time" and we contacted a lawyer. This obviously would've been good news to know before hand.

Now, the living situation at the previous house with my father in law:

My father in law is a pastor. He runs a church. My wife had been at this church her entire life and I had been since about the age of 13. My wife and I no longer desired to live the "church" life. Meaning we stopped going. The rule with my father in law's houses is that if you don't go to church or participate in church things, meaning helping out in ministries and such, then you were not welcomed to live in his house. Out of respect for him and because we felt like it would be more wrong for us to live a lie and just force ourselves to go we told him we would voluntarily move out. The rent was phenominal. Which by the way is the same amount of rent that he charges to all his tenants pay. It's cheap, he just charges what he needs to pay for the taxes of the house. The house is also in the one of the worst neighborhoods in all of the country (and I'm not exxagerating one bit). My goal became to move out of that house and go somewhere safer.

I met that goal. Even after moving out of the apartment we got and moving in with my dad, we are still in a safer neighborhood.

Now, with the poker. I was making enough money in poker to pay my bills. The problem began to arise when either a) something would pop up that we didn't plan for or b) we would overspend one month and get behind. I could not get to a higher level in poker. Obviously, this was the result of poor planning and diving in earlier than I should have. I will admit that. Also, in the last few weeks I became annoyed with poker (probably due to being stuck at the same limit for so long) and I decided getting a job was better. You can actually go back in my blog and read all about it. So, I began applying for jobs. But, for whatever reason, I couldn't land one. That's why we had to move out of our apartment. That's why I had to rely on family to "sponge" off. It's not ideal and most people will/do look down upon that. But, when you are in teh situation that I was in, regardless of it being my fault or not, you have to do what you have to do. Obviously, looking back I wish I would've done things differently. Hopefully, in the future instead of being the one that's in need I'm able to be the one to offer help.

2. The car. I have never been towed... I don't know what you're referring to here, exactly. When the car breaks down on the road I'll have it towed, but my car has never just been towed. But, yes my car is in the shop and if it's going to cost more than it's worth to fix, I will not be getting it fixed. Right now, my dad HAPPILY lets me use his car (that would otherwise be sitting in a garage), so that works for me. If something happens, hopefully it is at the time when I can afford a car or the repairs.

3. I have actually talked about goals and how I never seem to achieve them inside my blog. But, some that I have achieved over the last year that have meaning:

1. I moved out of that terrible neighborhood.
2. My wife and I's relationship is the strongest it has ever been and she has gotten the help she has needed.
3. I'm currently at a job, that has upside, and if things go as they've been told to me they are gonna go, then I will be in a situation financially that I have never been in before and my finances will be better than ever.
4. Even being Fat, I have lost 23 pounds this year alone. I have seen a doctor 2x this year, which is 2x more than I have in the past 6 years prior. I am fat, but I am also healthier than I have been previously.
5. I have kept this blog, which you say you enjoy and I enjoy writing in for over a year and a half.

I'd have to go back and see if there are more, but I would say all of those are meaningful to me and they are ones that I have achieved.

4. i will gladly post my pokertracker results. THis is a screenshot of my pokertracker since I restarted my database on July 18th, 2007. These are my cash game results. I assume you know what ptracker is. If not, post a comment and I will explain to you what each number means.



Perhaps +5000$ is microscopic to you. But to me that is usually a half years worth of income at a job. Now, like I said that is from July of last year to about a few months ago when I stopped playing online. Also, you can go to www.thepokerdb.com and type in Flammpoker under full tilt and see my tournament winnings of last year. In 2007, I had 2800$ in profit in Mtts. In 2008, up until March (my brother took over my name after March) I have over 2300$ in profit from MTTs. So, there you go, proof that I am a winning poker player and not a microscopic winner. Unless over 10,000$ in a little over a years time in profit is microscopic.

5. I am a gambling man. I would certainly take your wager that I don't become a store manager or that I'm not going to be a dominos employee in a year. Obviously, I dont have a lot of money, but I'd bet you 200$ that both of those happen. Now, I don't have complete control over the becoming a store manager. There has to be a store available to manage, so we'll say that one doesn't have a year limit. Even though I have been told by my current store manager that it could happen in a few months. But, I'm guessing that since the only name I know you by is Anonymous, you wont be paying your part if/when you lose. But, if you're serious, I take ur bet. And I always pay prop bets.

6. This perhaps is true. Poor people probably shouldn't have kids. However, since there is no law that says we cant if we want to and we both want to have children, then guess what it's our decision. We both love kids and even if we can't provide them with Gold plated binkies I guarantee you we would be better parents and offer our children much better love and support than 95% of the parents out there. Which, in my opinion is more important than any amount of money I could possess.

I'm glad you read my blog and I'm glad you have learned from my blog. Even if it's from my mistakes. The greatest things my parents ever taught me was from their mistakes. Also, I have no problem with you voicing in your opinions and hey, I have honestly enjoyed this little spat. It brought my blog a little life. But, it's also okay for me to defend myself and correct any misinformation I believed you were spreading. I appreciate that you care about me enough to say "hey, wtf are you doing, you idiot." It's perfectly fine.

And you're right. I'm fat. I joke all the time about how half my life is over. But, if you were told you would be dead at the age of 50 would that keep you from living the life you want to live? Would that keep you from having kids and enjoying them while you are alive? Life doesn't end with me. Many have come before me and many will go after me. It's okay to enjoy the life you have while you are here and that's all I'm trying to do. I'm going to fuck up--- alot. But, instead of saying, wtf is the point, I keep trying. I look forward to the day that I succeed in what I set out to do. If I die before that happens, so be it. Hopefully, you're doing the same and not too worried about everything you've told me to worry about and therefore, missing out on the life that you do have.

Thanx for the post and the topic.

What a lame day

I was awoken this morning by my brother.



"Your boss called. She said Tiara quit and she needs you to come in."

Fridays are supposed to be my day off. I call her back and find out Tiara, who just put in her 2 weeks to go to part time instead of full time (immature 19 year old girl who, although does a pretty good job at work, clearly can't handle the responsibilities of her position. She is also an emotional wreck, and my boss suspects she was stealing money). But, today she came in and found out that she had money taken out of her check by Cindy (boss) because of the cash register being short one day last week. Tiara wasn't very happy about this and threatened to quit. My boss told her to go ahead and so that's that.

So, I get called in and whatever, I can use the hours. It doesn't bother me really. I am told I'll be getting off at 4. So 4 comes around and I'm told that I'll have to drive for a little bit cuz one of the drivers couldn't come in. Well, we get super slammed. LIke worse than I've ever seen before at our store. So, Next thing you know it's 6 o clock and I'm still there. Also, apparently the other driver who was on the schedule was supposed to have the day off and my boss forgot. So, I'm stuck basically until it calms down. Problem is, it never does! I'm stuck there until 830 before I can finally go home. So, I went from having the day off to working 9 hours. Gay!

Also, I know some of you were concerned about my last post and referring to the fact that my wife might be pregnant. Well, today she got a pregnancy test



but never even got to use it. She just happened to start her cycle a week late. Kind of gross to let you all know that, I know, but how else do i word it?

I can't believe it's the weekend already.

A Thursday edition of the Stew

There's a few things going on lately.

First the good stuff...

I am getting my 2nd raise at work already.

I just got my promotion a few weeks ago, maybe it's been a month, I guess and my boss told me the other day that I'll be getting another raise on the next check. So, that's pretty cool. It means I'm one step closer to my goal of running my own store. The next step is learning more paperwork. After that, I'll become the assistant manager, which I think is actually considered the Senior Assistant Manager. It all sounds great, but the pay doesn't sound anywhere near what the title makes it sound. But, w/e I'm doing what I need to do to put myself and my family in a good situation.

Also, on the positive side of things. In my fantasy league, I won in both leagues and I'm in 3rd place in the Salary cap league. If you're interested in checking out our new and very unique system you can check out our blog at http://uffstl.blogspot.com/
. So, right now I'm in 1st place in the overall standings of the league.

Hopefully, I can maintain that and come out on top. I was the beneficiary of Willie Parker's 3 tds and Marion Barber's 2 tds.

I cant really think of anything else too good. My wife is currently a week late... she is very excited and hopeful that it means what it usually means. I am forcing her to wait a few days though before I pay an obscene amount of money for a pregnancy test. Keep your fingers crossed. I am excited about the chance, but I also know that the chance of miscarriage is pretty high and I know she will be devastated if that ends up happening. So, I'm also a little worried and would rather wait a few months before I get excited, if she is pregnant.

Now, as far as my car goes..

which means we've switched over to the negative side of life... last I heard the computer is messed up in it. I still haven't gotten the car from the shop, mainly because I'm worried that they are gonna charge me some money for repairs that did nothing to my car and also, because I don't know exactly what to do. I looked up the Edmunds value of my car and with the mileage and the condition of it, it's only worth about 1400$. So, I don't know if I should bring it back here and store it until I can afford a big repair or just junk it. I have AAA, so the tow would be free, but it will also use my 3rd tow out of the 4 I get and I've only had the membership for a few months. Which is kind of gay. I have to figure it all out today, though, it's not really fair for me to leave my car at this person's shop.

There's nothing too much really to complain about. Right now I'm struggling a little bit because of recent big expenses that haven't worked out.

But, with the few bills I do have it shouldn't be too long until I have some money again.

My goodbye to Poker Dynasty:

I said my goodbye to Poker Dynasty today. Here is what I wrote.


"
Well, my subscription is up towards the end of this month and I don't plan on renewing. I haven't played online poker in over 2 months and I have no plans on playing in the near future. Therefore, it doesn't make much sense to have a training site bill each month.

I've had a great time at this site and met a lot of good friends and even better poker players. It was fun growing into sharks with a lot of you and I wish everyone here the best of luck in their lives.

I was the first official member of this site when it switched over and I was one of the first members of the site when it was free. Ryan is a good friend of mine who I talk to regularly and I know many of you still keep in touch and hit me up when I get on AIM. It's a sad day for me to no longer be a member of this site, but "all good things must come to an end."

Good luck everyone and to the new owners I wish you guys great success and I hope you do the Dynasty name proud. WHen I do get back into online poker I will likely be back to catch up on what I'll miss.

Til then,
Flammpoker

For anyone who doesn't check out my blog, and would like to keep up on my escapades.. check me out at

http://flammpoker.blogspot.com/

I blog about 2-3 times a week and usually have about 15 people read it daily. I'm coming up on 300 posts and I've been keeping it since a few months after I first joined this site back in April 07.

For those that didn't get to hear my winning rap song vs Mo, here you go. Enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eBGIQ7ZuuiU

Well, at least it's something ...

I got a call yesterday about my car. They told me that they still don't know what's wrong with it, but they think it might be my computer in my car. They said to get that reprogrammed I would have to take it to the dealership. I submitted a question online to the dealer to ask about costs of this type of repair. I'll probably call them monday if I dont hear anything. If it's too much, I'm probably just gonna have my car sit forever again.

As for my dads car... he was able to get it legalized. It passed inspection and emissions, surprisingly. He paid his personal property tax and so, we have legal plates and I have a car to drive. So, while it's not the greatest outcome, at least I'm not screwed anymore.

I am however, broke as a joke. I gave all the money I borrowed for my car to my dad to get the car legalized and everything. I run shifts at work this weekend, so I wont make any tip money. Hopefully my brother can loan me some gas money til at least monday, when I'll make a few bucks in tips.

Also, I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. I really had no reason to go in, other then to talk about my low testosterone count. But, I left feeling disappointed and confused. Last time while at the doctor I was apparently pretty adamant about losing weight to him. He suggested some things for me to do, and apparently he had high expectations. He pretty much reprimanded me for not sticking to a diet and for not losing more weight. He even went so far as to tell me, "you don't want to lose weight. if you did, you would've done what I suggested." Which is kind of unfair. Because, I actually did do it for the first few weeks. But, I don't think it really came across to him while I was there, because I was kind of caught off guard. He acted like I've been doing nothing to change my habits and that I'm basically lazy and I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. Well, I do know and I have changed a lot of my eating habits. But, my level of enthusiasm that was there 3 months ago, didn't match the fact that I had only lost another 3 pounds. (btw, i lost 3 more pounds) I swam a lot this summer, I ate so much better than i would have in the past. My job causes me to be more active. And another issue was my feet. I waited 9 weeks for insoles. It's hard to do to much when your feet hurt constantly.

Regardless, to a degree he was right and I did lose sight of enthusiastically tackling my weight. That's my biggest issue. I have all the knowledge, but when it comes to application over the long term I have a lot of trouble staying focused. I'm going to kick this into high gear as soon as i can afford some groceries. I've already started working on a menu and identifying what excercises I can do with stuff around the house. Right now, I can't afford excercise equipment or weights or a gym membership, so I will have to do things Rocky 4 style. Unfortunately, though in real life it takes more than a 20 minute montage to get ripped.

YES! followed soon by a loud aggravated exhale

I wake up. I get dressed. I go pick up car. It STARTS!!!!! I must be dreaming. I turn it off, just to make sure it starts again. It does! I pump the air conditioning and enjoy it as though I've been living in a desert for 30 days. I go home. I take it to get an inspection/emissions so i can legalize it. Things are going well.

The car wont start at the shop.

Insert loud aggravated exhale

follow it with WTF.

The guys at the shop, the new shop cuz I'm never going back to that other one, say it's the gasoline, because it's so old. They say they have to drop the gas tank and remove it all and put fresh gas in it. I am currently awaiting a phone call, when thats done. Of course, in the my mind, I'm assuming it's going to end up being something else and I'm not going to have a vehicle for another month. If it is screwed up, and it's something that costs a lot of money, I seriously have no idea what I'm going to do. My brother got a ticket last nite, on Sept 1st, in my dads car for expired tags that ended August 31st. And with his car jacked up, I'm guessing it's not gonna pass inspection. So, if my car doesn't get fixed, legalized, and stay fixed... I have NO vehicle. It's going to be a month til I can afford a decent sized repair bill too. Well, scratch that, if I can't go to work, right. Need something to go right here, for once.



UPDATE: I waited a few hours then called the place working on my car. "It has more problems then we thought. We're about to close today, we're gonna look at it some more tomorrow."

I hate my life.